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LOST SOUL

After being shot by Gunther's hired assassins, Starsky receives a devastating letter from the Police Department and bolts. Can Hutch find him before it's too late?

CHAPTER ONE

 

Detective Ken Hutchinson, Hutch to his friends, signed the finished report and tossed it in his out basket with a relieved sigh. It had been a long day and he was ready to go home. Home for the past seven months had been a secluded little cottage on the beach that he shared with his partner and best friend, Detective David Starsky. The two men had moved into the cottage when Starsky was released from the hospital after a near fatal shooting.

That day, over nine months ago, would be branded in Hutch's mind forever. They had just left the building intending to go out on patrol of their assigned district. Two men dressed up like officers, driving a stolen police vehicle, had opened fire on them as they stood beside Starsky's car. Hutch had been protected from the high power bullets by the body of the car but Starsky was caught in the open with no place to hide. He had taken four bullets to the torso at close range. The damage had been massive, his body ripped apart by the gunfire.

Hutch still remembered running around the front of the car and finding Starsky lying on the ground beside the vehicle with his head cradled gently in the rear wheel well. Blood was already pooling rapidly on the pavement beneath the still body. For a moment Hutch couldn't breathe, he couldn't move, terrified that his partner was already dead. Then the adrenaline rush kicked in and he ran to Starsky's side, falling to his knees in his partner’s blood and gently pulled the brunet's head into his lap. That was when he noticed the shallow, ragged breathing as his best friend struggled to draw air into his shattered body.

Within minutes, they were surrounded by their fellow officers. Some had actually witnessed the shooting and others had been attracted by the sound of the gunshots. Hutch's numbed mind had barely registered the voices yelling for a medic and an ambulance. He had sat there holding Starsky tightly in his arms and prayed to a god he was no longer sure he believed in not to let him die. Not now, not like this. He remembered hands pulling at him, forcing him to relinquish his hold on his partner, when the ambulance arrived so that the paramedics could stabilize him enough to be transported to the hospital.

Hutch had sat for hours, surrounded by friends and colleagues, unmindful of his bloodstained clothes and hands, desperate for news on his partner's condition. When it finally came it wasn't encouraging. Massive Damage. Complete life support. Coma. None of the doctors expected him to survive the night. So, Hutch waited some more. This time outside Starsky's room in the I.C.U., staring through the glass observation window at his fallen partner.

Somehow, Hutch was granted a miracle and Starsky survived against all odds. It wasn't until much later that the big blond found out that the brunet's heart had stopped three times; once in the ambulance on the way to the hospital, once during the emergency surgery to try to repair the worst of the damage and save his life, and once in the I.C.U. during that first 24 hours after the shooting. Somehow, God had heard Hutch's prayers and the prayers of everyone else who loved the unruly brunet.

But Starsky had paid a high price for his survival. He had spent almost six weeks in the hospital, battling infections, bed sores, two bouts of pneumonia, three additional surgeries to his shattered body, and extensive physical therapy just to get strong enough to go home. Even then, he was so weak that he still needed 24 hour a day care since he couldn't do anything for himself. It was a job that Hutch refused to delegate to anyone else. He had taken an unpaid leave of absence, living off a trust fund his grandfather had left him, to care for his partner as he slowly recovered from his injuries. Hutch had bought the cottage on the beach since both of their apartments had steps and Starsky was in no condition to climb stairs. The cottage was peaceful and serene with large open rooms that Starsky could easily navigate with assistance either from Hutch or in the wheelchair that he had to use in the beginning.

During those first three months at home, Starsky had been re-admitted to the hospital four times for another infection, a severe allergic reaction to one of his various medications, a blood clot in his leg, and another bout with pneumonia. It had taken almost six months for Starsky to reach the point in his recovery where he could fend for himself without Hutch's constant assistance. He was still in pain but he had become an expert at hiding it from Hutch, pasting a brave smile on his face as he faced his daily regimen of doctor's appointments and extensive physical therapy. With the same single minded determination that had kept him alive for so many years on the streets, Starsky fought to regain his strength, his stamina and his health.

The doctors had warned them both that he had some permanent damage from the shooting. His left lung had been almost shredded by the bullets and Starsky had only regained 90 percent use of it. For the rest of his life he would be more susceptible to lung infections and even a mild cold could easily turn into pneumonia. He got winded more easily and couldn't run for long distances the way he used to. His immune system had also been compromised and he was more vulnerable to illness and infection. The doctors had also warned him that his body would never be able to survive the trauma of another shooting or serious injury. Starsky chose to ignore their dire predictions that he would never be fit to return to active duty. He continued to work hard to regain his health so he could qualify for reinstatement to the police force.

Hutch had worked diligently to find the man responsible for the assassination attempt, resulting in the downfall of one of the most powerful men in the entire country. During the first few months of Starsky's rehabilitation, Hutch had worked on the case at home where he could still care for Starsky. As the brunet got stronger, Hutch began going into the office two days a week, working in the mornings while Starsky was at his various appointments for the day. Finally, a little over a month ago, Starsky had persuaded him to return to work full time. Hutch still called his partner at least once a day to make sure he was okay. It was hard for the blond to let himself relax. He continued to have nightmares about the day Starsky was shot and, despite the brunet's miraculous recovery; he was still terrified of the possibility of Starsky dying.

"Hutch, can I see you in my office for a minute?" Captain Dobey's voice said, cutting into the blond's reminiscing. Startled, Hutch raised his head and looked at his commanding officer questioningly. Something in the burly black man's tone made Hutch uneasy and apprehensive. He tried to ignore the cold chill that ran down his spine as he shoved himself to his feet and followed Dobey into his office, closing the door quietly behind him.

"What is it, Cap?" he asked cautiously. "I was just getting ready to go home."

"Have you talked to Starsky today?" Dobey asked gruffly, sinking down behind his desk with a heavy sigh.

"He called me this morning and said he was going to run some errands. Why? Is something wrong?" Hutch's voice escalated a notch as his 'Starsky sense' kicked into overdrive. He slumped down in the chair facing the Captain's desk as a sense of foreboding overwhelmed him. "Did something happen to Starsky?"

"I think you'd better take a look at this." Dobey said, shoving a sheet of paper across the desk towards him. "That was just delivered to me half an hour ago. A copy was delivered to Starsky by certified messenger sometime this afternoon. I tried calling Dave immediately but nobody answered the phone."

Hutch's hand was trembling were trembling as he picked up the sheet of paper and began to read:

Detective Sergeant First Class David M. Starsky

73091 Bay Cove Drive

Bay City, California

Dear Sergeant Starsky,

After a careful review of your medical records and progress reports concerning the shooting that occurred on May 15th, 1977, it is the decision of this medical board that you are unfit to return to active duty with the Bay City Police Department in your former capacity as a detective first class assigned to Captain Harold Dobey, homicide division.

You are eligible for permanent disability status with a pension equaling three-fourths of your former pay per month. Your medical insurance will continue while you remain under a doctor's care for the injuries sustained in the line of duty to this department.

This board would like to commend you for your years of loyal service to the Bay City Police Department. Your sacrifice to duty will be duly noted.

Sincerely yours,

Charles A. Peterson

Medical Investigator

Medical Board

Bay City Police Department

"The bastards can't do that!" Hutch hissed, crumbling the letter into a ball and tossing it back on the desk in front of the Captain. His eyes blazed with a blue fire at the injustice. "Starsky has the right to try for reinstatement! They can't just write him off like that without giving him a chance!"

"They can and they did." Dobey said solemnly. "How do you think Starsky's going to take the news?" Although Dobey kept his voice calm and level, Hutch could hear the undercurrent of worry and concern evident in his tone. Over the years, Starsky and Hutch had become as close to the Captain and his family as if they were his own sons. Somewhere along the way, the professional detachment, the line between superior officer and the men who worked for him had faded. It was a well known fact that the two detectives were not only Dobey's best team of officers but also his favorite team. After the shooting and Starsky's long, painful recovery, Dobey and his family had offered more than their share of prayers for both men.

"I don't know." Hutch said, bouncing to his feet. He made no attempt to conceal the fear that had crept into his voice. "I have to go! I have to check and make sure that Starsky is okay."

"Call me!" Dobey yelled after him as Hutch rushed out of the office. Hutch ignored the plea as he hurried out of the squad room. He had to get home. He had to get to Starsky.

CHAPTER TWO

Hutch broke every traffic law in the books in his rush to get home and make sure that Starsky was okay. He knew how much Starsky had counted on proving the doctors wrong and being able to regain everything he had lost after the shooting. Even if his expectations weren't that realistic, the brunet still hoped to continue working as a cop in some capacity. Now even that option had been taken away from him. Hutch knew that he would be devastated by the news. For the first time in all the years that they had been friends, he had no idea how Starsky would react. He knew that Starsky had suffered from bouts of depression in the past few weeks because his recovery seemed to have reached a plateau and wasn't progressing as rapidly as it had in the beginning. This could be the final straw, one that even the usually resilient brunet wouldn't be able to deal with.

It took Hutch 20 minutes to make a drive that usually took at least 40 minutes during rush hour traffic. A long gravel lane ran from the main road to the secluded college that had been their haven for the past seven months. Hutch had picked the cottage because it offered the peace and quiet that Starsky needed so desperately in those first few months but it was still close enough to the city to make it convenient to both of them. They had their own little stretch of private beach where Starsky could walk or swim without being afraid of being stared at by unwelcome eyes. He was still terribly self-conscious of the scars that marred his chest, stomach and upper back. Since his chest hair had finally grown back, they weren't as noticeable as they had been in the beginning. To Starsky, they were ugly and disfiguring. To Hutch, they were a sign of his partner's courage and indomitable will to live.

The cottage had a redwood deck that wrapped around the front and two sides of the structure had ramps instead of steps to make it easier for Starsky to navigate on his own. The one-story, two bedroom cottage had large bay windows and an attached greenhouse in the back that Hutch had built after they moved in for his plants. Sliding glass doors in front opened directly into the main room of the cottage.

Alarm bells went off in Hutch's head when he realized that Starsky's car was gone. Praying that he had just taken a drive to a carryout just down the road, Hutch climbed out of his car and hurried to the deck. The front doors were locked, another bad sign. Starsky seldom locked the doors if he only intended to be gone for a few minutes. Hutch unlocked the doors and stepped inside, shivering involuntarily at the eerie silence that filled the house.

"STARSKY! ARE YOU HERE?" he called out even though the heavy silence in the air answered that question for him. Starsky was not in the cottage. Hutch's anxious eyes swept across the room, immediately noting the pile of torn up paper on the floor beside the coffee table and the sealed envelope lying on the table with his name clearly written across the front in Starsky's left handed scrawl. Hutch slumped down on the sofa and picked up the envelope, staring at it. He was afraid to open it. He didn't want to know what it said. To avoid the inevitable, he carefully picked up the pieces of torn paper from the floor. A quick glance at the scrapes of paper told him that it was the letter from the department. The same letter that he had read in Captain Dobey's office. He let the pieces flutter through his fingers to the top of the coffee table.

Unable to put it off any longer, he tore open the envelope clutched tightly in his hands. It contained a single sheet of paper covered with Starsky's distinctive script. Taking a deep breath, Hutch began to read the message from his missing partner.

Dear Hutch,

By the time you read this letter I'll be gone. Don't try to find me. It's better for both of us this way. We were fools for believing that things could ever be the way they used to be…at least for me. I'll never be the man I was before I got shot. That man died that day in the parking lot. We just didn't know it at the time.

I'm tired of fighting. Tired of trying to be something that I'll never be again. And I refuse to drag you down with me. You still have a life, a career that you can be proud of. Make the most of it, Blintz. Take the Lieutenants exam. You've earned it. At least that way I know that you'll be off the streets and won't end up like me or worse. I don't trust anyone else to watch your back out there the way I did. Knowing that you're safe, even if I'm not there beside you, will at least give me some peace of mind.

I don't know where I'm going. I just know that I need to get away from this city. I don't plan on coming back. It would hurt too much. There are too many memories here, memories that will only drive me crazy if I stay.

Always remember one thing, Blondie. You're the best friend I ever had and I love you more than you'll ever know. You kept me alive when all I wanted to do was give up and die. I guess I should be grateful for that but right now I don't know if I am or not. You'll always be with me in my heart. Me and thee forever.

Starsk

"Oh, damn it, Starsky…" Hutch choked out through the lump in his throat, his eyes flooding with tears. "What the hell have you done?" His chest felt as if someone had reached in and ripped his heart to pieces. He knew that Starsky was in no condition, emotionally or mentally to be making any life altering decisions right now. He was scared and he was in pain, his first instinct to run and hide so that he could lick his wounds. All Hutch knew with any certainty was that he had to find him as soon possible before Starsky did something that couldn't be undone.

Hutch forced himself to his feet and stumbled into Starsky's bedroom. The closet door and dresser drawers were open, most of his clothes were missing except for a couple of jackets and his dress uniform, which still hung covered in protective plastic in the closet. His shaving kit was missing from the bathroom and a few personal items were gone from the bedroom. Most of his framed pictures and other belongings, like his TV and his stereo system, were still in the room. His departure had been impulsive but thought out. He was traveling light, leaving behind the material possessions that would draw attention to himself. A sudden thought crept through Hutch's brain and he reached up on the top shelf of the closet to pull down a box where he knew Starsky kept some of his personal papers and keepsakes. Starsky's birth certificate, his passport, and the title to the Torino were missing. So was his father's gun.

Hutch sank down on the edge of Starsky's bed and buried his face in his hands. He tried to think of places where Starsky might have gone. New York would be the first logical choice but Hutch doubted if Starsky would go there. He knew that was the first place Hutch would start looking for him. Most of Starsky's extended family lived in the New York or the Bay City area. Hutch also knew that Starsky hated the cold so he doubted if the brunet would head towards the east coast. He was also a big city boy so he would probably avoid the small, rural areas. That still left a lot of possibilities.

Hutch fumbled for the phone and called Captain Dobey at home. When Dobey answered with a gruff hello, Hutch said,

"He's gone, Cap. Starsky's gone."

"What do you mean he is gone?" Dobey growled

"Just what I said. I came home and he was gone. He left a note. He said he was leaving and not coming back."

"Any idea where he might have gone?"

"No, not really. I have to find him, Cap." Hutch said, reluctant to express his deepest fears even to Captain Dobey.

"You don't think he'll try to hurt himself, do you?" Dobey asked quietly, lowering his voice in deference to his family. The thought of the brunet trying to harm himself seemed far fetched but in his present state of mind, he may not be thinking straight.

"I don't think so. God, I hope not." Hutch said, allowing just a touch of fear to creep into his voice. "Captain, he's hurt and he's scared. He feels like his world is falling apart around him…that all the work he's done to regain his health hasn't been worth it."

"What do you want to do?" Dobey asked in a resigned voice.

"I need some time off so I can find him and try to talk him into coming back home with me."

"How much time?"

"I don't know." Hutch admitted "He's got a good head start on me and I have no idea where to even start looking for him. It could take a while."

"You don't think he went back to New York. To his mothers?"

"No. He knows that's the first place I'd start looking."

"All right." Dobey said with a heavy sigh. "I'll give you a week. If you haven't found him by then, I'll see what I can do to get you some more time. But, I want you to check in with me at least once a day so I at least know where you are."

"Thanks, Cap. I appreciate it." Hutch said gratefully. He hung up and started making plans to find his lost partner. He knew it wouldn't be easy, especially if Starsky didn't want to be found. He knew how to cover his tracks and slip under police radar.

Picking up the phone, he made a quick call to the bank. Luckily it was a Friday night, the one night of the week that the bank stayed open late. Since Hutch's name had been added to all Starsky's accounts when he was shot to simplify taking care of his finances, the woman he talked was very helpful. She volunteered the information that Starsky had closed out his checking account and his savings account around two-thirty that afternoon, a little over three hours before Hutch got home. He had also cleaned out the contents of his safety deposit box and returned the key. Hutch knew that safety deposit box had contained Starsky's copy of the deed to the cottage, a copy of his will, and some savings bonds.

Hutch's next call was to the company that had issued Starsky's credit card. Identifying himself as a police officer and telling them that he was investigating a possible case of identity theft, he asked to be notified of any unusual activity on any of the cards. They promised to forward a daily report to the answering machine at the cottage which Hutch could check from any location. Once his phone calls were finished, Hutch set about packing a bag for a road trip. One way or the other, no matter how long it took, he was determined to find Starsky and talk some sense into him. Since it was too late to start his search, he decided to take a shower and turn in so he could get an early start in the morning. Not that he expected to get much sleep. He was too worried about Starsky.

CHAPTER THREE

After a sleepless night, Hutch got dressed at dawn and made himself a pot of black coffee to jump start the day. In the past two years, his normally healthy eating habits had given way to a junk food diet that rivaled that of his partner. Since the shooting, he had returned to a healthier diet since Starsky was forced to follow a rigid diet of his own during the first months of his recovery as his stomach was still healing from his injuries. The brunet could no longer eat most of the spicy foods he craved without paying for it later with hours of painful heartburn and nausea. He also had to eat smaller amounts at a time but more frequently during the day. That concerned Hutch too. He knew that since he had returned to work full time Starsky had been cheating on his diet and not eating when he was supposed to.

When Hutch reached into the cabinet for a bowl to get some cereal, he was startled to find Starsky's medications still sitting neatly arranged on the shelf. Granted, he wasn't on as many medications as he had been in the beginning, but there were still a few that he was supposed to be taking on a regular basis including one for nausea, an antibiotic for a recent respiratory infection, and a medication to help boost his immune system. Those medications were all still there. The only thing that seemed to be missing was his recently refilled medication for his pain pills. Hutch felt his concern soaring for his wayward friend. He could be jeopardizing his recovery by neglecting his prescribed medications. Somehow, Hutch sensed that Starsky wasn't concerned about his recovery any longer. Just one more thing for Hutch to worry about while he looked for him.

Hutch spent most of the morning calling motels within a hundred mile radius of Bay City hoping to find out which direction Starsky had headed when he left the city. Although the doctor had cleared the brunet to drive three weeks ago, Hutch doubted if he would be able to drive for a long period at a time without stopping to rest. Around noon, he got lucky and found a motel on Highway 101 South just outside San Bernadino where a man matching Starsky's description but using the name 'Pete Baxter' had checked in around midnight the night before. Unfortunately, he had checked out around nine am that morning but at least now Hutch had a direction to follow.

Grabbing his bag, Hutch locked the cottage and hurried out to his car. A little over two hours later, he was pulling into the parking lot in front of the motel where he believed Starsky had spent the night. He climbed out of his car and walked towards the office. A middle aged woman with stringy blonde hair was on duty behind the desk. She eyed Hutch suspiciously as he approached.

"Hi," Hutch said with a friendly smile. "I'm looking for a friend of mine. I think he may have spent the night here. I called earlier this morning from Bay City." Hutch took a recent snapshot of Starsky and himself out of his wallet and passed it over the desk to the woman. She examined the photo carefully and then handed it back to Hutch with an uninterested shrug of her shoulders.

"Yeah, that's the guy. But I told you that he checked out this morning around nine." She said

"I know. He didn't happen to say where he was headed, did he?"

"Nope and I didn't ask."

"Would you mind if I took a quick look at his room? Maybe he left something behind that'll help me find him."

"You a cop or something?" the woman said with a sneer. "Cause you sure sound like one."

"As a matter of fact, I am." Hutch said, pulling his badge from his pocket and showing it to her. "Now can I look at his room?"

"I guess so." She reached behind her and pulled a key off the pegboard behind her, handing it to Hutch. "Room 112. Last room at the end."

"Thanks." Hutch said gratefully, palming the key and hurrying out of the office. He found the room where Starsky had spent the night and unlocked the door, stepping inside. He paused, closing his eyes for a moment, and savoring the familiar scent of Starsky that seemed to linger in the air. Sighing, he opened his eyes and let his gaze sweep across the room. It looked like a thousand other motel rooms around the country. Minimally furnished and painted in drab colors with a cheap threadbare carpet on the floor. The bed was neatly made and the trash can in the bathroom was empty. There was nothing to show that Starsky had ever been there except for the faint scent of his favorite after shave lingering in the bathroom. Hutch returned the key to the office and continued his journey.

He stayed on the main highway, stopping at every truck stop and rest area he saw along the way. He showed anyone he encountered Starsky's picture and asked them if they had seen him. By four o'clock that afternoon, he had found the truck stop where Starsky had stopped for lunch and a little carryout where he stopped for a soft drink. It was almost dark when he found the combination truck stop and gas station where Starsky had stopped for supper and to fill Torino with gas. He was still heading south towards Arizona.

Hutch knew that he was only a few hours behind Starsky despite the brunet's head start. He continued to drive late into the night, hoping to shorten the distance that separated him from his fleeing partner. Finally, around one a.m. he couldn't drive any longer and pulled into a motel for the night. Despite the late hour, he called his home number to check the answering machine and called headquarters to leave a message for Captain Dobey. He spent a restless night, his sleep disturbed by nightmares where Starsky was in danger and Hutch couldn't reach him in time to save him.

Hutch was back on the road early the next morning. Around noon, he crossed over into Arizona and that's where he lost track of Starsky. The last confirmed sighting was at a motel where he had spent the night about 30 miles from the Arizona state line. He was now using the name 'Michael Bowers' By four o'clock that afternoon with no further sightings of his missing partner, Hutch realized that Starsky must have gotten off the main highway somewhere after leaving the motel where he'd last been seen. To try to find him, Hutch had no choice but to backtrack and take any exit or secondary road he came across and search until he picked up the trail again. It was a frustrating and time consuming endeavor. By the time he found a motel for the night, he still hadn't had any luck at picking up Starsky's trail again.

It wasn't until almost one o'clock the next afternoon when he finally stopped at a tiny little grocery on the outskirts of a rural town in Arizona that a clerk recognized the picture that he showed her of Starsky. She told the worried blond that the brunet had been there around noon the day before. He had purchased some soft drinks, some cold meat, bread and cookies. Hutch thanked her and went on his way, cursing softly under his breath. He had lost time he had gained by being forced to backtrack to pick Starsky's trail up again. By late that evening he had followed Starsky's trail across Arizona and began to suspect that the brunet was heading for the Mexican border. Daily checks of the answering machine back home told Hutch that Starsky was using cash to pay for everything, being careful not to leave a paper trail for anyone to follow. He was also using assumed names to cover his tracks whenever he had to stop for the night. Hutch doubted if anyone else besides himself would have been as successful in following Starsky's trail this far.

If Starsky was going into Mexico, he would need to show his birth certificate and photo ID at the border checkpoint unless he tried to sneak into the country by avoiding any of the checkpoints. With the roundabout route he was taking to get there, Hutch suspected that was what he had in mind. If Starsky was determined to go into hiding then Mexico was definitely the place to do it.

Hutch stopped that night at a motel just 20 miles from the Mexican border. After settling into his room for the evening, he placed a call to Captain Dobey at his home.

"Hey, Cap." Hutch greeted him "I'm still on Starsky's trail. I think he's headed for Mexico."

"Mexico? Why Mexico?" Dobey said in a startled voice.

"I don't know unless it's far enough away from Bay City to disappear for a while. Not to mention the fact that it would harder to find him there then if he stayed in the United States."

"Do you think he knows you're following him?"

"I don't think so. He's checking in under assumed names and paying for everything in cash to keep from leaving a paper trail…but he's not trying to hide his route or doing anything to keep anyone from remembering him. And he's still driving the striped tomato. Kinda hard to miss that thing." Hutch heard a small chuckle on the other end of the line. Hutch sighed and stifled an exhausted yawn. "I'll call you tomorrow. Maybe by then I'll have caught up with him…if he decides to stay in one spot long enough for me to do that."

"Make sure you do." Dobey ordered as he hung up the phone on his end.

Hutch disconnected the call and reached out to turn off the light. Staring into the darkness, he whispered,

"Hang in there, buddy. I'm coming and you're going to listen to what I have to say even if I have to handcuff you to make sure you listen."

The next day dawned bright and sunny, the temperature in the low eighties by eight a.m. Hutch felt confident that soon he would catch up with his partner and they'd be able to talk about the letter that had sent him on the run. Before leaving Bay City, Hutch had been in contact with their union rep and he had assured the big blond that if Starsky wanted to try for reinstatement on the force, when he was ready, they would back him all the way. Now all Hutch had to do was find Starsky and tell him that. And even if Starsky decided that he didn't want to try to get back his badge, then Hutch would support him in that decision too. No matter what he decided, it was a decision that they needed to make together, as a team, as partners, the way they always had. Since the shooting too many people had been making decisions for Starsky. He needed to be able to regain the power to decide some things for himself. Either way, Hutch no intention of going against Starsky's wishes, not this time.

Hutch arrived at the customs checkpoint and presented his documents to the officer in charge. After examining his identification carefully and he asked Hutch what his business was in Mexico and how long he intended to stay.

"Just taking a little vacation." Hutch told him with a friendly smile. "I plan to stay for a week…maybe a little longer." The guard nodded and handed Hutch a travel permit before passing him through the checkpoint. Now all he had to do was pick up Starsky's trail again.

CHAPTER FOUR

(A big thanks goes to Elivalero for helping with the Spanish phrases used in this story)

 

After finding an unguarded spot to cross over into Mexico, Starsky drove to a town just south of the border called Guaymas where he rented a room for the night. Now that he was finally here, he wasn't sure what he wanted to do next. When he received the letter from the Department informing him that he was considered damaged goods, the only thought in his mind had been to leave town, to run away from Bay City and the life it no longer represented to him. After months of excruciating pain and hard work, it had all been for nothing. The department wasn't even going to give him a chance to try to get his job back. It had been more than he could take after all the other losses he had suffered since being shot.

The hardest part had been leaving without saying goodbye to Hutch. He knew that his letter was taking the coward's way out but he knew if he stuck around until Hutch got home, the big blond would talk him out of leaving. Hutch had already sacrificed so much to take care of him during the long, painful months of his initial recovery. He couldn't allow him to sacrifice anymore of his life taking care of a man who was a cripple, both emotionally and physically. An empty shell of a man with no future in sight, at least not a future that he wanted to think about.

He had packed his clothes, wrote the letter to Hutch, and cleaned out his bank accounts without any thought about where he was going to end up. He knew that New York was out of the question. That was the first place Hutch would start looking for him and he had no doubts at all that Hutch would ignore his instructions not to try to find him. He had driven aimlessly with no particular destination in mind until just after he crossed the Arizona State line. Then, he had impulsively decided to head for Mexico.

Although his body was recovering well from the horrendous injuries he had suffered in the shooting, he was still far from being fully recovered and he knew it. He could only drive for two to three hours at a time before he was forced to pull over and rest. At night, he turned in early so he could start fresh the next morning, his battered body screaming for sleep and a pain pill or two to ease the discomfort of being on the road all day.

Shortly after his return from Viet Nam, Starsky had spent several weeks in Mexico. That was when he had discovered the Huichol Indians and fallen in love with their art. He had purchased several pieces of pottery to take back home with him, pieces that still decorated his room at the cottage on the beach. He had visited some remote areas of the country, areas usually avoided by the local tourists. He had gained a hard earned respect for the people who lived there, simple people who struggled just to survive from day to day with none of the modern conveniences he took for granted. Since then, his only trips to Mexico had been a couple of weekend excursions to Tijuana with Hutch.

He hoped to find the same peace of mind that he had found here so long ago when he first returned from Viet Nam. He had returned to the states after 18 months in country. He had spent the last four months of that time in a P.O.W. camp. He was angry and disillusioned, bitter and withdrawn. He had returned to a country where he was spit on and called a baby killer by war protesters who had no idea what it was really like over there. Plagued by nightmares and flashbacks of his time in the military, he ran just like he had done when he got the letter from the department.

After a drunken binge that had lasted for over a week, he found himself in Mexico. Those weeks alone, wandering aimlessly from town to town, had been just what his soul needed to heal. He could only hope that the same thing would happen again this time. His Spanish was spotty at best. He understood the language better than he spoke it. Hutch was the one who could speak it fluently. But through trial and error, with a few humorous mistakes along the way, Starsky usually found a way to communicate with the natives who didn't speak any English.

After settling into his room and taking a nap for a couple of hours, Starsky's stomach started reminding him that it was time to eat. He left his hotel and found a restaurant not far away that offered both authentic Mexican cuisine and more traditional American dishes. Deciding to indulge in his love for Mexican food, he ordered a meal that consisted of Frijoles or refried beans and a Mexican sandwich consisting of a large roll filled with a generous amount of mildly spiced chicken, sour cream and guacamole. The meal came with a side order of tortillas which took the place of bread in a traditional Mexican restaurant. He ordered a glass of dark ale to drink with his food. Taking into account his still sensitive stomach, he carefully avoided ordering any hot sauce or salsa with his meal.

After eating his fill, he left a generous tip and went back to his hotel. His muscles ached and cramped from his long drive and he found himself wishing that Hutch was there to massage away his pain. Sighing deeply, he decided to take a hot shower to soothe away the discomfort. Walking into the tiny adjoining bathroom, he stripped off his clothes and reached into the shower to adjust the water to a comfortable temperature. He caught a glimpse of his face in the mirror above the sink, momentarily startled by the dark circles under his eyes and the haunted expression on his face. He turned away from the mirror, his fingers absent-mindedly rubbing the thick ridge of scar tissue on his chest, the one nearest his heart.

He could barely stand to look at the scars on his body, a permanent and painful reminder of that day in the parking garage. Thankfully, he remembered very little of the events of that day. He had no memory of the shooting itself except in his nightmares. His clearest memory was waking up in the hospital, confused and in more pain than he had ever imagined possible. Even his memories of those early days in the ICU were clouded by the heavy doses of morphine he was being given to combat the pain from his shattered body. He knew that the scars weren't as noticeable as they had been; his chest hair covering the worst of them. But in his mind, they were still as vivid as the day he saw them for the first time and he knew that they always would be to him.

He stepped under the shower and let the water run over his body, relaxing him and easing the pain of his tortured body. He gasped in shock when the water turned cold. Quickly turning off the water, he stepped out of the stall and grabbed the thick terrycloth towel to dry off with. Dropping the towel to the floor, he walked back into the other room and threw himself down on the bed, falling asleep almost immediately even without his usual nighttime pain pill. Starsky had no way of knowing that Hutch was only 30 miles away spending the night in another hotel just over the Mexican border.

He slept in the next morning, not waking until almost ten. His body was sore and stiff as usual. He knew it would loosen up once he started moving around. His stomach felt a little upset so he decided to skip breakfast, settling for a cup of coffee with lots of sugar and cream. The Mexican coffee was stronger and more bitter than the brand he used back home. A casual conversation with his waitress rewarded him with the directions to a tiny village not far away where he could find some local art. He also walked away with the girl's phone number and a promise to call her while he was in town.

Grabbing a bottle of water from the cantina along with some fresh fruit to eat later, he set out for the village. Since it was only a few miles, he decided to walk. It was a beautiful day and he missed the exercise. Back home, he often walked for miles along the beach in while Hutch was at work. He missed their little cottage and the beach but he still thought that he had done the right thing.

He walked for almost two hours before realizing that he must have taken a wrong turn somewhere. He should have reached the village by now. He turned around and started to make his way back to the main road. It didn't take long for him to realize that he was lost but Starsky wasn't concerned. He knew if he kept walking towards the sun, he would eventually find the road again. He wasn't as inept in the outdoors as he had led Hutch to believe over the years. He had learned how to mark a trail and to survive on his own in the jungles of Viet Nam. It was a lesson you didn't forget. He had shoved his memories of that period in his life deep inside his mind to a place he seldom visited voluntarily. Skills he had learned over there were ones that he would rather forget.

He stopped to rest and to eat the fruit he had brought with him. The exercise had made him hungrier than he had been in days. He had lost almost 30 pounds after the shooting and still needed to regain 10 pounds before he was back to his normal weight. Hutch was constantly trying new dishes to tempt his appetite. Food, once a source of pleasure to the brunet, had lost its appeal. It didn't taste quite as good when he knew it was just as likely to make an abrupt reappearance in the toilet bowl. The vomiting and nausea weren't as bad as they had been in the beginning but he was still plagued with bouts often enough to make eating more of a chore than a pleasure. The only thing he seemed to be able to eat consistently without barfing was ice cream or fruit. And frankly, he was getting a bit tired of both. The foods he craved the most were the foods he still wasn't allowed to have on his diet because the doctor felt they would be too hard on his recovering digestive system. He was sick and tired of being sick and tired.

He was ready to move on when he heard the sound of voices approaching in the heavily wooded area to his left. Loud voices, arguing in Spanish. Suddenly, four men appeared out of the heavy foliage. Big men in dirty clothes with heavily muscled torsos and arms. They stopped and stared at Starsky in surprise, obviously not expecting to find anyone else in the area.

“¿Quien demonios eres?” one man growled in a decidedly unfriendly tone.

“¿Que estas haciendo aquí?”

Since Starsky wasn't quite sure what the other man had said, he simply held his hands up, palms forward, in the universal sign of surrender and shook his head hoping that they would get the message that he meant them no harm. Apparently that wasn't enough to pacify them. One man took a threatening step forward and said in heavily accented English,

Mis amigo asked you who the hell you were and what you are doing here?”

“I was looking for the main road. I got lost.” Starsky said truthfully. Every cop instinct he had was warning him to be careful. These men were dangerous.

“This is no place for a gringo…especially one who looks like you.” The man said with a leer that made Starsky's skin crawl.

“I don't want any trouble. Just point the way to the main road and I'm outta here.”

“Too late, gringo…you've already got more trouble than you can handle.” The man said threateningly as he took another step forward. Starsky instinctively fell into a defensive stance and balled his hands into fists. He took a cautious step backwards with his left side turned at an angle, his chin tucked, and brought his hands up to protect his face while he kept his elbows close to each side to protect his ribs. He braced his feet and bent his knees slightly to help center his body weight and keep his balance.

He knew he was in no shape to take on these four men, especially in his present physical condition, but he wasn't going to go down without a fight. His eyes darted from side to side as the four men began to close in around him, trying to keep each of them in sight and prepare for their attack. A sudden, unexpected blow came from behind when a fifth man that he hadn't seen crept up behind him and hit him in the head with the butt of a rifle. Starsky fell to the ground, unconscious and bleeding heavily from a wound at the base of his skull. Laughing, two of the men picked up his limp body and the five men disappeared back into the woods.

CHAPTER FIVE

The pounding in his head slowly pulled Starsky out of the darkness and back into awareness. As he regained consciousness, he realized that he was strung up with his hands tied to a beam above his head and his ankles tied together. As his vision cleared enough for him to survey his surroundings, he realized that he was in a tiny hut with an earthen floor and no windows. The only light came from the sunlight that filtered in through large cracks in the wall. Starsky groaned softly as he remembered his encounter with the men in the woods. No matter where he went, he always seemed to attract trouble like a magnet.

“I'm glad to see that you're finally awake,” said a deep voice from the shadows to Starsky's left. The voice spoke in perfect English with just a hint of an accent. “I was beginning to think I hit you a bit harder than I intended to.” A man stepped out of the shadows and into Starsky's line of vision. He was younger than the other four men that Starsky remembered and more neatly dressed but just as muscular and well built. “I'm Miguel Sanchez…and you are?”

“Starsky. David Starsky.”

“So…David Starsky…what are you doing here by yourself in the middle of nowhere?”

“I got lost. I'm trying to find my way back to the main road.” Starsky said truthfully.

“Surely, you don't expect me to be foolish enough to believe that, do you?”

“I don't really give a damn if you believe me or not. It's the truth.” The brunet growled. He was tired and his head hurt. He was in no mood to play nice with one of the men who had taken him prisoner and strung him up a side of beef.

Miguel chuckled. “Cocky little bastard too, aren't you? I like that.” The smile faded from his face. “Now suppose you tell me why you're really out here.”

“I told you. I got lost.” Starsky snapped in an irritated voice.

“Well, then that is too bad for you, David. It looks like you're gonna be to be our guest for a while.”

“Look, why don't you just let me go? I'm going back to the states in a few days. I won't tell anybody you're out here or what happened.” Starsky said. He knew his appeal would probably fall on deaf ears but it was worth a shot.

“Why should I believe you, David? And even if I did, Mis compañeros will never let you leave…not alive anyway.”

“If you're going to kill me anyway, why don't you just do it and get it over with?” the brunet said defiantly, tugging instinctively at the ropes that bound his wrists.

“Because my amigos have been out here for a long time and they've gotten bored. They've taken an interest in you and want to have a little fun with you first.” Miguel said with a chilling smile.

“Terrific.” Starsky muttered, wondering what their definition of fun was supposed to mean. “I always like making new friends.”

Miguel stepped forward and pulled open Starsky's shirt which he realized for the first time was unbuttoned, exposing his chest and stomach. “These scars…you were shot, yes?”

“Yeah, I caught four slugs in the back.” Starsky said shortly without going into any more detail about the shooting.

“You're a lucky man to have survived an attack like that. I'm sure it must be an interesting story. Perhaps you tell me about it.”

“I don't think it would it would interest you that much. Let's just say I was in the wrong place at the wrong time.”

“Sort of like now. Yes?”

“Something like that.”

“You're obviously a man who isn't afraid to die. You've already faced death… more than once I would venture to say.”

“Dying is easy. It's living that's a bitch.”

“Still, a man who has embraced death as closely as you have and survived isn't always so quick to embrace it when it comes calling again.”

“I guess that depends on if you have anything left to live for.”

“Are you saying that you don't?” Miguel asked in a surprised voice. “Frankly, I find that hard to believe.”

“Believe what you want. It's none of your business anyway.”

“I suppose not…and as much as I'm enjoying this conversation with you…I really must go and see what my friends are up to.” Miguel walked to the door and then paused, glancing back at the bound brunet. “We'll chat again…soon.”

“Terrific.” Starsky muttered as the younger man stepped through the doorway, leaving him alone with his various aches and pains. He tugged at the ropes around his wrists even though he knew it was an exercise in futility. They were tried too tightly, the rough rope cutting into his flesh, his fingers numb from impaired circulation. The position of his arms pulled on the healing incisions in his chest and stomach, making them throb and burn. It also put a strain on his damaged left lung making it hard for him to take a deep cleansing breath. Combined with the insistent pounding in his head, he was getting nauseated and dizzy.

Starsky lost track of time as he hung there, unable to change his position or to ease the cramps in his arms and shoulders. In the past when he had found himself in similar situations, he always knew that he could always count on Hutch to be out there looking for him but this time he knew that Hutch wasn't going to show up like a white knight and save him. Hutch didn't even know where he was. Starsky had made sure of that himself. This was one mess he might not walk away from alive. What hurt the most was realizing that Hutch would never know what had happened to him. For the big blond there would no closure except for Starsky's abrupt departure and his curtly worded letter.

The creaking of the door opening aroused him from his stupor. He raised his head and watched as two of the other men entered the room. Since he didn't know their names, he dubbed them with nicknames to keep them straight. Since one of them had a long scar down the left side of his face, Starsky immediately christened him Scar Face. The second man was the one who had spoken in heavily accented English. Starsky dubbed him Stupid. They were speaking rapidly between themselves in Spanish. Starsky only recognized a few words and the words he did recognize did little to ease his mind. Words like 'nice ass', 'tight' and 'pretty'. His stomach churned uneasily as he suddenly realized what Miguel may have meant when he said his friends wanted to have some fun with him first before they killed him.

As the two men moved closed, leering at him suggestively, Starsky instinctively began to struggle against the ropes that held him prisoner. He felt the blood running down his forearms as the ropes cut into the tender flesh of his wrists but he didn't care. The fear of these men taking what they wanted from him without being able to defend himself repulsed him and made his heart pound loudly in his chest. A cold sweat broke out on his face, stinging as it dripped down into his eyes. He flinched and tried to pull away as Scar Face reached out and grabbed the front of his shirt, ripping it from his torso, leaving him naked from the waist up.

Stupid muttered something in Spanish and grinned as he stroked his fingers through the thick curls that covered Starsky's chest. The other man's touch made Starsky retch, his stomach rejecting his meager lunch. The two men laughed and quickly took a step back, watching impassively as Starsky's retching turned into painful dry heaves. They both turned around in surprise when the door slammed open. A third man stood in the doorway, glaring at Stupid and Scar Face. He had a head of thick curly hair so Starsky labeled him Curly for future reference. The three men held a heated discussion for a several minutes in Spanish and then all three left the building. Starsky heaved a deep sigh of relief. He was safe from any further unwelcome fondling, at least for now.

Starsky had always felt a special compassion for women who had been attacked and brutally raped but he had never imagined finding himself in a similar situation where he could very well end up a victim of the same crime. The thought of being assaulted sexually, especially by another man, scared the hell out of him. He had worked with enough female victims to be well aware of the shame and disgrace they felt after being attacked. He knew that there were male victims of the same crime but those crimes were seldom reported because of the stigma people seemed to attach to it when the victim was a man instead of a woman. Telling himself that rape was an act of violence and that it had nothing to do with sex did little to reassure him. He swore to fight back in any way possible to make sure that it didn't happen to him, even if he died defending himself.

As the hours wore on, Starsky's stomach began to growl with hunger pains, his mouth dry and parched. Somehow he doubted if his captors would be too concerned about feeding him anytime soon. As the sun began to set, dark shadows crept into the hut and a chill settled in the air. Starsky shivered involuntarily from the cold, goose bumps breaking out over his uncovered chest. He took short catnaps throughout the night, unable to fall asleep due to his awkward position and discomfort from the cold. By the time the first rays of the early morning sun crept through the cracks in the walls, his entire body was sore and stiff, his cramped muscles screaming in protest. Starsky choked back an agonized groan. He knew that it would only get worse as the day wore on and he continued to hang in the same position with no relief in sight.

It wasn't long before another urge was made painfully clear. His stomach knotted with cramps as he fought to control himself but it was a losing battle. He felt his face flush with shame as he felt himself lose control of his over extended bladder, the hot wetness soaking through the front of his jeans and running down the inside of his legs. The arid odor of urine filled the air surrounding him. He wondered how long it would be before another bodily function demanded his attention. He could vaguely remember losing control of his bladder and sphincter muscle when he was in the I.C.U. and soiling himself but at least then there had been a physical reason. This time it was just another form of humiliation and degradation. Nothing more, nothing less. Similar strategies had been used in Viet Nam when he was a prisoner of war. Part of the Viet Cong methods of torture involved reducing a man to an object with no name, no identity and no pride. It was easier to abuse an object that barely resembled anything human. Unable to do anything about his shame, Starsky hung his head and waited for the inevitable.

Warning: This chapter contains scenes of a graphic nature involving the sexual abuse of a major character. If this offends you or disturbs you, please do not read.

CHAPTER SIX

Hands were touching him in places that he didn’t want to be touched, fondling parts of his anatomy that had only known a woman’s touch. Starsky awoke with a startled cry only to find himself staring into the grinning faces of Scar Face and Stupid. Oh, God! It wasn’t a dream! It wasn’t just a nightmare! “GET YOUR FUCKING HANDS OFF OF ME!” he screamed in outrage as he tried to pull away from the hands that were touching his body so intimately.

Scar Face laughed, a cold evil sound, and pulled a switchblade knife from his jeans. With a flick of his wrist, the long lethal looking blade flashed open. Stupid grinned at Starsky and said in his heavily accented voice, “Don’t move or my amigo will cut you and cut you bad.” Stupid leaned in and ran his tongue along the side of Starsky’s face, almost making the brunet gag at the smell of rotten teeth and bad breath. In a harsh whisper, Stupid snarled into a curl covered ear “Fight all you want…its better when you fight.”

Starsky flinched as Scar Face moved closer and slid the edge of the blade underneath the waistband of his jeans, the metal cold against his skin. The sharp knife slit through the heavy denim like butter as the other man cut the jeans from Starsky’s body. He winced in pain when the blade nicked his right leg as Scar Face cut down the seam. Tossing the ruined jeans aside, both Stupid and Scar Face stepped back to admire their unobstructed view of Starsky’s body, nude except for a pair of black bikini briefs. Their eyes lingered on the distinctive bulge between his legs.

Stupid reached out to trace his thumb over the largest scar on the brunet’s torso, the one that ran from just below his left nipple down to his naval. He pressed harder than necessary on the still sensitive scar tissue causing Starsky to choke back a moan of pain. Momentarily distracted by the pain, he failed to notice Scar Face moving around behind him until he felt a beefy hand pawing at his right buttock. Before he could react to the unwanted caress, he felt strong heavily muscled arms wrapping around his waist and pulling him back against the bigger man’s body. He could feel the hardness of the other man’s arousal thrusting against his barely covered ass, the erect shaft sliding obscenely between his thighs. He panicked and began fighting the ropes that still bound his hands.

With a laugh that could only be described as a cackle, Stupid unzipped his jeans and pulled out his own fully erect cock. He pressed up against Starsky’s body from the front, the two men effectively pinning him between them so he couldn’t struggle. Stupid ground his erection against Starsky’s groin, grinning in the brunet’s face, obviously enjoying the shame and the fear that he saw reflected in those sapphire eyes. It didn’t seem to matter to either man that Starsky wasn’t getting aroused by their attention but instead was trying desperately to avoid contact. The two men continued to rub up against Starsky’s body, their breathing getting heavier and louder as they rapidly approached their climaxes. Starsky felt the hot sticky liquid that suddenly splattered against his stomach and between his thighs almost simultaneously.

As the two men pulled away, Scar Face mumbled “La próxima vez, descubriré lo apretado que es tu culo”in Starsky’s ear.

Stupid grinned at his friend’s words and told Starsky with a smirk, “He said the next time, he’s gonna to stick it in so he can see how tight you are.” Both men laughed as they turned and left the hut, leaving Starsky alone to deal with his shame and the humiliation of being treated like a piece of meat by his two assailants.

The brunet let his mind drift wishing that he had stayed back in Bay City. He longed to see Hutch’s face just one more time but he knew that was impossible. A hacking cough that made it feel like his chest was being torn apart startled him out of his thoughts. Great. That’s all I need right now. He knew that the cold night air had aggravated the respiratory infection he had just been getting over when he left Bay City. Given his present circumstances, he knew there was a very real danger of it developing into another case of pneumonia if it was left untreated.

He heard the door opening and raised his head just as Miguel stepped into the hut. Deep brown eyes surveyed Starsky’s condition critically, a thin smile tugging at his lips.

“I see that Paco and Ricardo have been having a little fun.”

“Is that what they call it?” Starsky said in a hoarse, raspy voice. His throat was so dry he could barely swallow, his lips were cracked and sore. He watched with carefully guarded eyes as Miguel pulled a silver flask out of his jacket and took a step towards him.

“Relax,” Miguel said with an encouraging smile as if reading Starsky’s thoughts. “It’s only water. You look like you could use a drink.”

“Please…” Starsky said. He hated the pleading sound he heard in his voice but if that was what it took, he’d beg just so he could have something to ease his thirst. The Mexican nodded and held the flask up to Starsky’s lips, tipping it so the tepid water spilled into his mouth. He swallowed greedily, whimpering softly when Miguel removed the flask after just a few sips.

“That’s enough for now. Too much at one time and it will just come right back up.” Miguel tilted his head to one side and eyed the brunet’s face critically. “You’re flushed…” he gently laid the side of his hand against Starsky’s cheek. “And you have a fever. Are you sick?”

“It’s cold in here at night.” Starsky said “Especially when I’m only half dressed.”

“Is that all it is? Just a bit of a cold?”

“Yeah.” Starsky said, refusing to elaborate any further. He was determined not to disclose any of his medical problems to his captors. He doubted if it would matter much to any of them anyway. He took a shallow breathe and looked at Miguel questioningly. “If you’re going to kill me anyway…why don’t you at least tell me why? What’s here that I’m not supposed to see?”

“You’ve already seen it. You’ve seen us.” Miguel said with a ghost of a smile. “A very powerful man is looking for us because Carlos was stupid enough to try and make a pass at his daughter. Of course, Paco and Juan didn’t help matters any when they stole a great deal of money from him before they took off.”

“Where do you figure into all this? You don’t seem like the others.”

“Ricardo, Carlos and Juan are my cousins. They asked for my help and I couldn’t turn my back on them. Blood is blood.”

“So now this man is hunting all of you. And if he finds you?”

“Then we die. This man you do not cross. He is the head of the local sindicato.” That was one of the Spanish words that Starsky recognized. The syndicate. He smiled ruefully. Even in Mexico, you couldn’t outrun the long arm of the syndicate.

“So, the other four all worked for him but not you…”

“No. I was smarter than that…at least I thought I was. But, now it does not matter. My fate has been sealed along with theirs because I helped them escape.”

Starsky remained silent. He could understand being willing to die for a principle. He had faced that same dilemma every day when he was still a cop. Hell, he had almost died simply because he carried a badge. Even without the badge, he would still sacrifice his own life if it meant saving the life of an innocent person or a child, his mother, Nicky, or Hutch. Especially Hutch. Thinking about Hutch only made him sad again, knowing that he would never see the big blond again.

Miguel looked at Starsky with a thin smile. “A man like you understands about honor and obligation, don’t you?”

“You could say that.”

“Did you serve in your military?”

“Yeah. The Army for three years.”

Viet Nam?”

Starsky gave a slight nod of his head. “Eighteen months.”

“I was educated in the United States and then I came back here to live. Maybe I should have stayed there.”

“Maybe you should have.”

“Well, it’s too late to worry about that now. Are you hungry?”

“No…” Starsky lied “But I wouldn’t mind some more water.”

Miguel pulled the silver flask from his jacket and held it to Starsky’s lips once more. This time he let the brunet drink his fill. Slipping the flask back into his pocket, he looked at Starsky with a faint smile. “You are not a very good liar. I will get you something to eat.” He turned and left before Starsky could voice any objections. The truth was he was starving but in spite of his hunger he didn’t really feel like eating.

Miguel returned in a few minutes carrying a steaming bowl. As he came closer, Starsky recognized the aroma of refried beans and rice. “It’s not much.” Miguel said apologetically “But, I’m afraid it’s the best I can do.”

Starsky let Miguel feed him a few bites before shaking his head and refusing to eat anymore. Sitting the bowl on the ground at his feet, Miguel glanced at Starsky’s badly torn writs and said, “That must be painful. You shouldn’t pull so hard on the ropes. You’ll only hurt yourself more.” He hesitated and then picked up the bowl from the ground. “I must leave you now.” He paused and then added “For what it’s worth, I’m sorry that things have to end this way. In another time, another place, I think we could have been friends.” Without another word, he turned and left Starsky alone. In spite of his involvement with the other men, Starsky found himself pitying Miguel. He was only doing what his honor and tradition obligated him to do.

As darkness fell once more, Starsky began to shiver violently and his cough became worse as the congestion filled his lungs. Sometime during the early morning hours, he began drifting in and out of consciousness as his fever began to climb higher. During one of his more coherent moments, he realized that someone had cut him down. He was now lying on his side on the ground with his hands and feet still securely bound. The most disturbing thing he noticed was that he was now completely nude. He wasn’t sure it that should worry him or not and frankly he was too exhausted to care. He closed his eyes and let himself drift back into the darkness.

The next time he opened his eyes, Starsky knew that he was in trouble. He could barely breathe. His chest felt like it was on fire and the best he could do was to take short panting gulps of air and even that didn’t satisfy his burning need for oxygen. He knew his minor chest infection had turned into a raging case of pneumonia. He was hot and cold at the same time, his teeth chattering even as the sweat poured down his face. It was too much of an effort to stay awake so he let himself sink back into unconsciousness.

He didn’t hear the door slamming open to his prison sometime later or see the two strange men that strode into the room with firm determined steps. One of them knelt down beside Starsky and felt his forehead. Glancing up at the distinguished looking man standing beside him, he said in a disinterested voice,

“This one is sick. He’s as good as dead. Should we leave him?”

“No…” the other man said slowly, looking at Starsky’s face quizzically. “I know this man. We’ll bring him with us. I want to know what he’s doing here.” The other man smiled coldly “Then we can kill him if I don’t like the answer.”

CHAPTER SEVEN

Cold sterile air. Soft barely audible voices. A deep burning pain in his chest. Chills. Fever. Ice packs under his arm pits and placed against his groin. Slowly, Starsky's foggy brain registered the fact that he must be in a hospital. It took too much effort to try to figure out where he was or how he got here. It was easier to just go back to sleep.

The young woman standing beside the bed gently brushed his fevered brow with a cool damp cloth. His fever was still dangerously high.

The doctor her father had called had ordered him to be packed in ice to try to bring it down. The IV running into his right forearm was delivering strong antibiotics directly into his blood stream to try to combat the massive infection that was ravaging his body. A second IV was being used to re-hydrate him and provide him much needed nutrition intravenously. His sweat soaked sheets were changed regularly, the young woman at his side supplying a lot of his care despite her father's strenuous and very vocal objections. Even with the doctor's best efforts, the brunet's breathing was still labored and shallow.

The woman's eyes filled with tears as she looked at the man lying on the bed. The terrible scars on his chest and stomach bore mute evidence to a life altering trauma that had occurred after she had left him. She had read about the shooting. Her father regularly received outdated copies of the Bay City Newspaper sent by an old friend who still lived in the States. She had religiously saved every clipping she found about him, much to her father's chagrin and obvious disapproval. She glanced up as the door opened and a hired nurse stepped into the room. In a quiet voice, she said,

"Your father is looking for you."

"Thank you, Joanna." With one last glance at the man on the bed, Rosie Malone turned and left the room to join her father, Frank Malone, in his study. Her father looked up with a dark scowl as she knocked and then quietly entered the room.

"You've been with him again." He growled. It was a not a question, it was a simple statement of fact.

"He's still very sick. I'm helping take care of him." Rosie said demurely. She had been raised to respect and honor her father. It was not in her nature to argue with him, not even in private. She knew what her father was. She knew what he had done. But, she still loved him despite his short comings. She had made her choice between her father and the man she had left behind almost six years ago and it was choice she had learned to live with. But, then she had never expected to see David Starsky again. Especially not here in Mexico in her father's villa.

She knew that her father and his men had found Paco and the other traitors that had turned against him. After disposing of them, they had found David in one of the huts while searching the hidden camp. Stunned and surprised to find David Starsky in that most unlikely of places, Frank Malone had ordered him brought back to the compound so he could find out why the Bay City Detective was in Mexico and how he had wound up with Paco and the others. He hadn't counted on Rosie accidentally discovering that the brunet was there. She had never been a willful child, always bending to his wishes. But, that was before she met David Starsky. For the first time in her life, she had openly defied her father but in the end, she had left the detective behind and accompanied him to Mexico.

He had spent the past six years rebuilding his empire south of the border and out of the reach of the United States Government. He needed to know why David Starsky, an undercover police officer with the Bay City Police Department, was in Mexico. If the dark haired detective was there looking for him or his daughter, then he had to die. It was as simple as that in Frank Malone's mind. For all intents and purposes, he would become another poor soul who had simply vanished somewhere in the vast wasteland of Mexico.

"I want you to stop spending so much time with him, Rosemary." He said firmly. "The nurse will take care of him. That's what I hired her for."

"What are you going to do with him when he gets better?" Rosie asked, voicing the question that had been on her mind since she found out that David was at the Villa.

"That depends on what he's doing here in the first place…and how he ended up in the camp where we found Paco and the others."

"You've seen his wrists and his ankles! He was tied up for God's sake! He certainly wasn't there voluntarily!"

"Maybe not but Paco and the others must have had a reason for taking him prisoner."

"I'm sure they did and I'm sure you know what that reason was as well as I do!" Rosie declared. It had been no secret that Paco and the oldest of the three Ortiz brothers were bi-sexual and that neither of them was averse to taking what they wanted by force. David was a ruggedly handsome man who was considered attractive by anyone's standards, male or female.

"There's no evidence that he's been sexually abused. I had the doctor check." Her father said with a smirk.

"Maybe they never had a chance to get that far before you found them." Rosie stated coldly. "Or before he got so sick…not that something like that would have stopped those two from doing whatever they wanted anyway."

"I want you to go into Santa Domingo with Maria this afternoon. You can help her with the shopping. I also have some letters I want you to mail for me."

"You're trying to get rid of me so I won't go back to David's room." She said flatly.

"You and I both know that it's better if you don't. Do you really think that he would still want you after all this time?" her father's words were harsh and they cut deep.

Rosie knew that he was right; she just didn't want to admit it. She bowed her head so her father wouldn't see the tears that gathered in her soft blue eyes. She would do as he ordered, at least for now. She would stay away from David's room and let the nurse care for him.

Frank Malone watched his daughter as she gracefully rose to her feet and left the room. She wasn't fooling him for a minute. She was complying with his wishes for now but the longer the Bay City cop was in the Villa, the more of a liability he became. The syndicate boss sighed. He hoped the bastard would soon be well enough to answer his questions so he could get rid of him. He smiled to himself as a new plan crossed his mind. Instead of killing him as he had originally intended, he decided that it would be more profitable to sell him to one of his competitors. David Starsky should bring a good price on the black market, especially with the porno trade. He had the looks and the body to make somebody a bundle of money. All Frank had to do meanwhile was keep Rosemary from finding out his plans for her ex-lover.

There was a light tap on the door. A moment later it opened to admit the doctor he had hired to treat Starsky. The man looked at the syndicate boss nervously as he shuffled across the room and sank into one of the overstuffed chairs facing the desk.

"So, Doctor," Frank said with a carefully calculated smile. "How is our patient doing?"

"Better I think. He seems to finally be responding to the antibiotics and the ice is bringing his fever down."

"How soon will he be alert enough to answer some questions?"

"Probably not at least for a couple of more days. He's still very weak and when he wakes up he's going to be confused and disoriented."

"I want my daughter kept out of his room. Please inform the nurse to let me know immediately if she attempts to see him."

"Yes, sir."

Frank stood up and walked over to a picture hanging on the wall. He swung it aside to reveal a concealed wall safe. Swiftly dialing in the combination, he opened it and pulled out a thick stack of bills. Turning, he tossed them to the doctor with a disdainful sneer on his face.

"That should be more than enough to compensate you for your time and your efforts to keep him alive…let's make sure he continues to stay alive."

"Yes, sir. Thank you, Mr. Malone." The man groveled.

Frank waved his hand, dismissing the man curtly, as he sank back down behind his desk. The doctor's biggest asset was that he did what he was told with no questions asked and he knew how to keep his mouth shut. But then the crime boss paid handsomely to make sure that's exactly what the doctor did. Personally, Malone had little use for the man himself. He didn't even know his name and he intended to keep it that way.

CHAPTER EIGHT

It took Hutch almost two days to pick up Starsky's trail again. Obviously, he had crossed the border at a different location than the one Hutch had used. By the time the blond managed to track his wayward partner to the town of Guaymas, Hutch was a nervous ball of energy. He was impatiently cruising the main street looking for a hotel when he spotted the distinctive red and white Torino parked on the street in front of one. Hutch slammed on his brakes and pulled into the empty space beside Starsky's car, ignoring the angry blaring of the car horn behind him. A man's voice cursed at him in Spanish, the angry words accented by the squealing of car tires on the pavement.

Hutch climbed out of his car and walked through the main entrance to the hotel, heading straight for the registration desk. He pulled the familiar snapshot of Starsky out of his pocket and said in fluent Spanish,

"Estoy buscando a mi amigo. ¿Ha visto usted a este hombre?"

"Si, señor" The desk clerk said politely in stilted English. "He check in three days ago but I haven't seen him for past two days."

"What room is he in?" Hutch asked, switching to English.

"Room 216. Upstairs…second door on right."

"He's a friend of mine and I've been looking for him. Can you give me a key so I can check and make sure he's not sick or something?"

"He not there. My daughter clean room each morning…she say he no there for past two days."

"Do you have any idea where he may have gone? I really need to find him."

"He no tell me when he leave. Maybe check at restaurant down the street. My daughter say he ate there. She saw him."

"Thank you, I'll do that." Hutch said. He pulled a bill out of his wallet and slid it across the desk towards the clerk. "That's for your help."

The man nodded and grinned happily, stuffing the money in his pocket before Hutch could change his mind. Hutch smiled pleasantly and hurried back into the street. He glanced around, noticing the tiny restaurant just down the block. Assuming that was the one in question, he strode rapidly in that direction. Stepping inside, he was pleasantly surprised and pleased with the warm, welcoming atmosphere inside the building. He found a vacant booth in the back of the room and sat down, taking a minute to look at the menu as he waited patiently for the waitress.

Only a few minute