Title: After Kira
Author: Sparkle731
Type: Slash
Summary: After their falling out over Kira, Hutch and Starsky re-examine
their personal relationship
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters of Starsky
and Hutch, just having fun with them for awhile.
Format: Story
Category: Committed
relationship
Rating: NC-17
AFTER KIRA
By Sparkle731
Starsky
leaned against the railing and looked out into the night, lost in his own
thoughts. Last night he and Hutch had made love. They hadn’t really done that
much but it had still been one of the most intense experiences of his life. The
problem was now Starsky was confused because he had not idea where he wanted
things to go from here. He had always been a ladies man and had never had any
attraction or desire for other men, not even in
And they had always been affectionate with each other. A naturally physical person, Starsky had always used touch as a way to communicate. In his family of origin, hugs and kisses were given freely. Hutch had been raised in a more sterile environment and at first he was reluctant and hesitant to return Starsky’s exuberant hugs or pats on the back but over time, he had come to need that physical touch between them just as much as Starsky did. It had reached the point over the years that they had no modesty around one another, having seen each other naked so many times and cared for each other’s most basic needs when one of the them was sick or hurt, that there was little need for privacy between them. They had even shared the same bed on numerous occasions, usually when one of them was sick or injured and the other stayed close to offer comfort and support.
The only thing they had never shared until now was a sexual relationship with each other. They had double dated in the past, they had made love to their individual girlfriends in the same apartment, with one of them in the bedroom and one of them in the living room, they had even had a threesome a time or two, but they had never touched each other in a sexual way until last night.
Starsky felt a shiver of excitement and a flush in his cheeks as he remembered the taste of Hutch’s kisses and the feel of his touch on his skin. Those simple things had aroused him more than he’d ever been aroused before until he wanted, no… he needed, Hutch beyond all reason. He had never been so overwhelmed by a sexual partner before and the feeling both excited him and scared him at the same time. That morning, the two friends had been awkward and shy with each other when they woke up in each other’s arms. They both tried to act as if everything was the same as it had always been even though they both knew it wasn’t and never would be again. After a hasty shower, Starsky had left using the excuse that he had some errands to run. The truth was, he needed time to think about what had happened with his best friend.
Two weeks ago, Hutch had been the one who had confessed to Starsky that he had ‘fallen in love’ with him. The two partners had just made up after a painful period of estrangement because of a woman they had both been sleeping with named Kira. Starsky wasn’t sure how to react when Hutch confessed that he had slept with Kira to try and break her and Starsky up because Hutch wanted Starsky for himself. Starsky had begged off making any kind of declaration that night by telling Hutch he needed time to think.
And once the idea of ‘being in love’ with Hutch had been planted in his mind, that seemed to be all the brunet could think about. He’d found himself fantasying about kissing Hutch and wondering what it would feel like. That had led to him imagining them in bed together, touching each other. Finally, Starsky couldn’t stand it any longer and last night he had been the one to make the first move by kissing Hutch. Things had quickly escalated after that and they had ended up in bed together, humping like a couple of horny teenagers.
Now Starsky had to answer some tough questions. What did he want from Hutch? Where did he want this new relationship to go? Did he want to make love to Hutch again? What did his newly discovered feelings for Hutch mean about Starsky himself? Was he gay? Or was there even a name for what Starsky and Hutch had become to each other over the years? Oh, he knew that in the eyes of the general public the fact that they were two men who were screwing each other, that made them gay. But in his heart, Starsky knew that he would never have even thought about screwing any other man besides Hutch. Starsky had never condoned or supported the gay lifestyle. He had never really understood how two men could want to be with each other sexually, at least not until now. He was still searching for answers when he heard the familiar footsteps coming up the staircase outside his apartment. He didn’t even have to turn around when he heard the apartment door open to know that it was Hutch.
“Hey….” Hutch said softly as he came up behind Starsky where he stood on the deck. Starsky could hear the hesitant tone in the big blond’s voice and knew that he was just as confused and unsure of himself at the moment as Starsky was.
“Hey, yourself.” Starsky said, instinctively leaning back against the tall strong body behind him. He closed his eyes as he felt Hutch slip his arms around his waist and lean his chin against the top of Starsky’s head.
“We need to talk.” Hutch said quietly
“I know.” Starsky admitted reluctantly “There’s beer in the ‘fridge. Do you want one?”
“Yeah, sounds good.” He released his partner and stepped back so that Starsky could go back inside and grab two beers out of the kitchen. The tall blond walked over to the sofa and slumped down on the cushions, watching his friend closely as he came back into the living room. Starsky was casually dressed in a pair of denim cutoffs with a faded red baseball jersey. Hutch smiled and thought how gorgeous the smaller man looked to him. Hutch had had months to analyze and dissect just how he felt about his partner and what it would mean to them, to their friendship, and to their careers if they became sexual partners. He had made peace with his own doubts and fears but he knew that it would take Starsky time to come to terms with his. Regardless, Hutch knew that he loved this man far too much to ever let him go.
Starsky handed Hutch his beer and sat down on the sofa beside him. He took a long deep swallow of his brew, suddenly at a loss for words, a rare occurrence indeed for the usually hyperactive Starsky. Hutch reached out his hand and began to massage the muscles in the back of the dark haired man’s neck, relaxing and calming him as usual.
“It’s okay, Starsk.” Hutch reassured him “We’ll work this out. The way we always do….me and thee.”
“Hutch,” Starsky said slowly “Last night….last night was great. I’m not going to deny that. I’ve never felt like that before.”
“Neither have I, buddy. Neither have I.”
“So what happens now?”
“That’s up to you. What do you want to happen?”
Starsky turned sapphire blue eyes to lock with ice blue ones and sighed softly “I’m not sure.” He admitted “I just know that I want to be with you and that scares me…”
“Scares you?” Hutch said in a surprised voice. “Why?”
“Because I’ve never felt quite like this before…..it feels like it did when I was with Terri…..but different, better somehow.” Starsky said, his voice cracking as he spoke the name of his fiancé who had been murdered, the one woman he had truly loved and planned to marry. A sad little smile crossed his lips “I think she’d approve….” A sob caught in his throat and Hutch instinctively reached out to pull him into his arms, holding him close as he gently ran his fingers through those thick dark curls. Hutch had loved Terri almost as much as Starsky had and he’d been just as devastated when she was killed. She had been a very special lady and she had always accepted the unique relationship between the two men.
Hutch cupped his hands on either side of Starsky’s face and leaned down to kiss him, a gentle lingering kiss that was filled with all the love the big blond felt in his heart for this man. Starsky returned the kiss willingly, opening his lips and letting Hutch’s tongue explore his mouth. A soft moan escaped his lips as he wrapped his arms around Hutch’s waist and held on tight. Right or wrong, he knew without any doubt that this was where he belonged and where he wanted to be.
Without saying a word, they stood up and walked back to Starsky’s bedroom where they slowly undressed each other and laid down on the bed. For a long time all they did was share soft gentle kisses as they caressed each other’s body, getting to know every inch of skin, touching places that had been forbidden before and learning what felt good to their partner and what didn’t. There was no need to hurry or to rush. They each knew that they had the rest of their lives to be together even if they hadn’t spoken aloud yet of any kind of commitment.
When Hutch decided to take control and take things up a notch, Starsky complied, lying back on the bed and closing his eyes as he felt that hot warm mouth touching his skin, seeking out hidden places that made Starsky squirm with pleasure. Starsky almost came unglued completely when he felt Hutch take the head of his throbbing erection into his mouth for the first time. A deep moan of pleasure escaped from his lips as his hips involuntarily bucked, and his fingers clutched frantically at the sheet until his knuckles turned white. He’d had more of his share of fantastic blowjobs in the past but never anything like this. Hutch seemed to know without Starsky saying a word just how he liked it the best, how to bring him to the very edge and then back off at the last minute before he could cum. Before long, Starsky was whimpering and begging Hutch to let him cum before he lost his mind.
He screamed out the tall blond’s name when he felt Hutch reaching down to fondle the silky smooth sack that hung between the brunet’s legs, while suddenly taking his cock all the way down his throat at the same time, something no woman had ever been able to do. The world around him exploded as Starsky went over the edge, pumping copious amounts of himself down the willing throat of his partner. Time seemed to stand still as Hutch sucked him dry and then stretched out beside him and pulled the whimpering brunet into his arms, holding him close as his body slowly came down from his sexual high. Another boundary had been crossed, binding them closer together with each new act of intimacy between them.
“God, Hutch….” Starsky said in a shaky voice once he regained his ability to talk. “Keep that up and you’re gonna kill me….”
“Was it really good for you?” Hutch asked bashfully. “I’ve never done anything like that before…..I just did what I knew felt good to me…..”
“You dope….” Starsky told him with an affectionate grin “It was fantastic. I’m still flying.”
“Good….cause I wanna make you feel good, Starsk….really good.” Hutch whispered
“You did, Blintz.” Starsky grinned impishly as he shifted positions so that he was the one leaning over Hutch “Now it’s your turn.”
Hutch sighed in blissful contentment and closed his eyes, letting Starsky return the favor. Within minutes, he was flying just as high when Starsky took him in his mouth for the first time. He moaned and cried out his lover’s name as he thrashed around on the bed, tangling his fingers in those soft silky curls until his body exploded in ecstasy. His body was trembling and he kept saying Starsky’s name as the burnet gathered him in his arms and held him close until his heart rate and breathing finally returned to normal. Content and at peace with themselves, the two lovers lay wrapped in each other’s arms, floating in the aftermath of their newfound love.
“Starsk….” Hutch said a little hesitantly, not sure how Starsky was going to react to what he had to say
“Yeah…” Starsky said in a sleepy voice as he curled up closer to the big blond and rested his head against his shoulder.
“I want us to find a place and move in together. Would you do that for me?” Hutch asked in a small voice.
“Is that a proposal?” Starsky said in a teasing voice, as he nuzzled the side of Hutch’s neck with his lips.
“If you want it to be.” Hutch told him “I wanna spend the rest of my life with you and I don’t wanna have to hide how I feel about you.”
“We’re still gonna have to hide how we feel from some people, especially on the job.” Starsky reminded him gently.
“I know that….just say you’ll do it. Okay?”
“When do we start looking for a house?” Starsky whispered in a satisfied voice.
“How about tomorrow?” Hutch said with a relieved smile.
“Tomorrow….” Starsky agreed, his voice trailing off as he drifted off to sleep.
Hutch lay there staring into the darkness, too happy and excited to sleep. Everything he’d ever wanted finally seemed within his reach. He’d finally found his soul mate and it was with the one person that had always been there by his side and always would be. Together, he and Starsky would conquer any challenges that life threw at them, two souls joined together for all eternity.
THE END